is it weird that when someone lets me stay over I sometimes watch them while they sleep bc it’s so damn fascinating??
I made the smart decision to do everything I can to take care of myself, and just got back from a four hour walk and meet-up with a friend. I went to go pick up money and then buy a little food. Now I have a few dollars for gas so I can get someone to help me get my things from someone else’s house. Still can’t find a more permanent place to stay though. And I know now that I definitely need to stay away from alcohol. I’ve never drank like that before and now I know how useless and unproductive it can make me if I’m repetitive like that. I can’t wait to get my stuff back, then I get to go in for a few job interviews. n_n
I’m stuck in a cycle of meaningless experiences with people and it’s killing me because I really just wish I actually mattered to someone.